I hate emotions. Hate having them, hate feeling them, hate how they take over my entire mind and body like how fatigue, hunger and sleep take over one’s mind and body. Only difference is there’s no cure to feelings, there’s no getting rid of them. At least not easily. Damn.
It’s a continuous tug of war in my head and in my heart for these feelings within me. These same bloody emotions are causing so much havoc in my life, I’ve become an emotional wreck within myself and I feel like I’m self-destructing on you.
I feel some type of way about you, but I’m confused on what you feel about me. 1 minute its this, the next its that, then we have the ever present case of the ex, turning me into such a green eyed monster that I have never ever been in my entire life. I can’t take it. I don’t like what these darn feelings are doing to me and I just need them to go away. So its a good thing you are going away as well, out of sight, out of mind yes? Well let’s hope so.
Weirdly enough Adele’s ‘Someone like you’ is playing in the background… coincidence? I think not but I still wish nothing but the best for you, I wasn’t good enough so I do hope you find someone to make you as happy as I always wanted to.
'Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste…'
I hate emotions.